It's been almost two months since I've updated our adoption blog. Honestly, I was waiting...hoping...to have more to say. We received word a few weeks ago that we needed some addendums to our psychology reports. The first draft was turned down by the attorney in Honduras that is working with/for our agency. I received the approved addendums this week and mailed them to be apostilled. Hoping to receive them next week and send to our agency to be sent to Honduras.
There is some sort of strike going on in Honduras right now. I've read different articles that speculate who is on strike and what they are on strike for but its bits and pieces and confusing to me. I've also been told that there are several holidays between now and the end of the year.
It's all been very sad and discouraging to me. It almost seems silly to say but last year at Christmas time I had a tiny glimmer of hope that our son would be with us for Christmas of 2012. I knew that it was a long shot and at the time we were told it would be closer to Spring/Summer of 2013. Now, my only prayer is that we will get on the waiting list by the end of the year. I feel as though we were given false hopes as to how quickly this could happen. I'm not the most patient person and I've been dreaming of our son for so many years, so the thought of waiting another 2-3 years is hard.
There have been people talking about leaving the Honduras program and adopting from somewhere else and that scares me. I just keep relying on the Promise that God gave me. IT IS DONE. These prophetic words bring me comfort when nothing else can. I'm so thankful for the people who have posted scriptures, prayers, and encouraging words in the message boards because I needed to hear them! I'm not giving up. I'm not changing courses. It's hard to have people ask me how the adoption is coming and reply that nothing is happening right now, but I'm so thankful they aren't forgetting! A friend posted some encouraging words that she received from a book called Relentless Hope. It was so touching I had to order the book right away. I need more of those encouraging words right now.
I can see my son when I close my eyes, I can picture him with our family, I'm praying about names for him, dreaming of decorating his room, praying over him daily...I KNOW he is out there. I believe we were called to adopt from Honduras, but even if God calls us to somewhere else down the road, I know that he will bring my son HOME!
Until then, Lord give me Relentless Hope and show me how to find the treasures in the process and not just the end result. Please show me how to find something precious in what seems like a waste of time. Help me to remember that even when it looks like things are standing still, you are moving!
