My dearest little boy,
I always knew I wanted to adopt. I'm so thankful your daddy wanted to also. Your daddy and I prayed for a long time about when to start this process and where to go. We are so excited to begin because that means we will get to meet you soon.
I dream about what I think you'll look like. I believe you're already born but maybe your still growing in the womb. I dream of what you'll like to do and what you're personality will be like. It's the same as when I was pregnant with your brother and sister. Instead of you growing in my tummy, you're growing in my heart. Each day will bring you closer to my arms. I can't wait to hold you, to love on you, to make you feel safe, and to tell you that you will always be loved! I pray that you don't suffer much before we've met. I have no idea what your life will be like before us or who your birth parents are. I pray they treat you well. No matter what, I will forever be in debt to them for giving you the gift of life. Each day I pray over your birth parents and for you. I pray that no matter where you are you are being fed and loved on. I pray for the social workers and the people at the orphanage that will take care of you. I know the time between now and when you become ours will be hard for me. The thought of knowing you are out there somewhere without your mommy makes me sad. But I am trusting in God to take care of you. I'm believing he will give me the strength to be strong until you're home.
Your brother William-Weston is too little to understand right now that he is getting a brother but I know yall will be best friends. I wonder how close yall will be in age. He's an active little thing so full of fun and personality. I can't wait to see yall playing sports together or wrestling around. I always wanted two boys and a girl.
Your sister Addison is excited. She loves being a sister and when your daddy asked if she wanted another brother or a sister, she proudly said brother! She will be like a mini mommy and I promise to try and keep her from bossing too much. ;) She gets it honestly though. She keeps asking me what we will name you and I tell her we aren't sure yet. Addison was concerned you would have to sit in the back of our car because there wasn't a bench in the middle. She told mommy you have to sit in the middle with her and Weston because you are her brother and friends sit in the back. That made mommy tear up. She started praying that God would bring us a car that would allow you to sit in the middle and he did! Your sister will want to help you and teach you things. She can't wait to have you and Weston be a little older to play with her. I love the fact that she will have two brothers watching out for her.
Your daddy is an amazing man! I can't wait for you to meet him. He loves you already too. He will teach you how to be a man of integrity, about business, about cars, how to drive tractors, how to be a leader, about sports, and so much more. Oh and we are Georgia bulldog fans in this family so he will teach you how to bark and avoid colors like orange. :) He's strong but loves his kids. If he's tough on you, it's only because he wants to raise you right but he will always love on you. Your sister and your brother love to climb on daddy and I dream of seeing you joining them. Little warning though, daddy likes to tickle!
And I'm your mommy. Just saying that brings tears to my eyes. I'm a combination of soft and tough like your daddy. I love to dance and be silly. I can't wait to hear you laugh! I love making my babies smile. I want to teach you to be a gentleman. I will make sure you eat healthy and throw in a few treats every now and then. Your mommy loves chocolate. I am excited to read you stories and to tuck you in every night. I look forward to taking you to church with us and teaching you about Jesus. I pray even now that you will have a heart after God the same as I pray over Addison and Weston. I give lots of hugs and kisses! And I like to tickle too. :)
My son you are so loved already! I know that God has picked you out to be ours. As you grow there may be times that you feel funny about being adopted or wonder why you look different. Please know that we will be jealous of your tan and mommy is excited to have a child with darker hair like hers. But more importantly, you are OUR child and we already love you as much as your brother and sister. To us adoption truly means you were brought to our life a different way but that you are still God's gift to us!
My love forever,
Your Mommy
