The end of 2011 is here. All I can think as the new year approaches is...
"Will our son be home in 2012??"
The probability is very unlikely. It's taken us a little longer to get our side done than we had hoped. Nathan has had to be out of town so much these past several weeks and it's slowed us down. Our goal is to turn everything in for our home study in another week so we can be assigned our case worker. Then to charge forward on building our Dossier. I truly hope that we can be finished with our Dossier and have it sent to Honduras by the end of March or beginning of April at the latest. From there it will take several weeks to be translated in Honduras and then we wait for approval. Once approved we get a number and an idea as to where we fall on the waiting list for a child. And then we wait... We've been told that once we get on the waiting list it can be anywhere from 6-12 months. Once we receive the referral we have to wait for a court date, go there and meet him, accept him officially, come home, and wait another 2 months or more before going back and being able to bring him home. I pray it happens fast!! We are so ready for our little guy! If you add all that up...the only way he will be home in 2012 will be GOD.
Christmas time has been a little hard for me. So much joy as we carry out our traditions and gather with family. In the back of my mind I keep thinking, "He should be here." When ordering the kids matching Christmas shirts I thought, "I should be ordering 3." My heart aches for him to be here so he will be safe and loved forever. I'm thankful for this ache. It's hard, but this feeling is what will drive us forward as we push through the logistics and the hardship of waiting. It confirms that God has called us to this and that he has a son picked out for us already.
Lord only you know when our little guy will be home. Watch over him, protect him, and give me strength until he's home.
